annasui_muimui

annasui_muimui @ 2008-07-04T16:57:00

2008-07-04T20:57:24Z

update: how the fuck is it that im riding, in a car, with my ex-friend who called me an anorexic freak, to the beach. and if we dont find our friends, we're going to have to, walking along the beach
FUCK THIS.

annasui_muimui @ 2008-07-03T14:33:00

2008-07-03T18:37:31Z

i hate it when i see my friend eat shit. that is all she eats and she is going nowhere with that diet :(
i don't even want to look it up but supposedly her hair is falling out? i mean i doubt it, but she ran her fingers through her hair and she said a lot came out, but i bet it was just a knot or something.
she showed up to my friends house last night with a huge soda (not sure if its diet but what does it matter)
and obviously went to wendy's. and this morning got chicken and fries from chik fil a

i mean its not even because i have my stupid fucked up life with my ED. it just.... i guess hurts to see her eat shit and not even try to eat healthy.
what if she becomes overweight at a young age (or what is she already is?) her mom isnt obese, from what i can tell from her pictures, but what if she does? like seriously all she eats is shit. burritos, pasta, pop tarts, FAST FOOD chicken and fries....

its just horrible :( she has tried to eat healthier... but it lasted a day
does it ever bother you whena friend eats crap all the time? if they do?

i hope i dont come off as mean or concieted or a bitch. its just.... i dont think ive ever known someone like this, you know? one of my best friends, ive known her since the first grade, is kinda big (i even hate saying it because it doesnt even fit her, you know?) but she eats healthy and has healthy snacks, and its just her. and she does sports too!

stolen from whatever_freak

2008-06-29T19:27:22Z

stolen from <lj user="whatever_freak">

1) Is there someone you wanna date right now?
kind of

2) Why did you stop liking the last person you liked last?
because they broke a promise

3) What are you listening to?
cute is what we aim for

4) Name a quote from the song you are listening to?
"i've become what a mother wouldn't want in a son"

5) What are you doing right now?
making tea, this, listening to songs

6) What does your last text say?
its truley fucking summer! i mean, its been summer, but its just hitting me. and i think is because summer is to defined to me as no sleep and this is the first night i havent had a test or work the next morning or been plagued by poison ivy

hahaha i love my best friend to death

7) Are you keeping a secret from someone who needs to know the truth?
yeah i guess

8) Last missed call?
i forgot

9) Last person you talked on the phone with?
my mom

10 ) Why did you last cry?
i was upset?

11) What was the first thing you did when you woke up today?
went back to bed

12) Is there a meaning behind your profile song?
i like it

13) Do you have a best friend?
yep

14) Do you like vitamin water?
nope

15) Have you ever hated someone and ended up being friends with them?
probably

16) What do you think of people who have sex before marriage?
its fine. its normal. i dont care.

17) What's your main goal in life?
to reach my other goals, and to change the world.

18) Are you more independent or dependent?
independent

19) Who was the last person you were mad at?
my mom

20) If you could change anything about yourself, what would you change and why?
my weight

21) What is the most important thing in life?
love

22) Does anyone love you?
yeah

23) What did you do today?
too lazy

24) Is your best friend pretty?
yep

25) Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom?
yep

26) What's your favorite thing to have for breakfast?
banana pancakes. or just a banana.

27) What's your favorite book?
twilight, catcher in the rye, harry potter and the order of the phoenix

28) Had plans and broke them?
of course

29) What would you do if you found out you were pregnant?
Haha, I think thats pretty impossible

30) When was the last time you saw your grandparents?
a long time ago

31) Are you a vegetarian?
yes but im technically a pescetarian. i allow fish

32) Do you lead people on?
no???

33) What is in front of you right now?
my laptop

34) Describe your room.
random, light green bare walsl (i have yet to put anything i had in my old room, onto my new one) and semi-messy. but organized

35) When and where were you born?
april 3rd, 1993 99th and 5th avenue- mt.sinai

36) What/who can always make you laugh?
sex and the city, my best friends

37) Ever given your all to someone who walked away?
nope. i guess i was smart

38) Is someone in love with you?
maybe???

39) Is there someone you know you should hate, but you can't?
yeah

40) Do you like someone as more than a friend right now?
not really

< - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - >

1. You're a girl, right?
Yes

2. Have you kissed any one on your top friends list?
no, i wish i smacked one right on trace

3. What was the last movie you watched?
Harry Potter and the order of the phoenix

4. Do you enjoy drama?
no

5. Are you a girly girl?
in some ways

6. Who was the last person you hugged?
idk? my dog?

7. Small or large purses?
it depends

8. Are you tall?
no, hha

9. Do you like someone?
sorta

10. What would you do if someone smacked your butt?
slap them in the face.

11. Are you a good friend?
yeah

12. Do you think you're conceited?
no, i hate conceieted girls. AND guys

13. Do you dress up on Halloween?
yep

14. Are you double jointed?
nope

15. Where is the weirdest place you have slept?
idk....

16. Has anyone touched/smacked your butt in the past 24 hours?
hahaha LAURA.

17. Is there any type of rumor going around about you?
nah

18. Do you call anybody by their last name?
yep

19. How many guys will read this?
it depends

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BE TRUTHFUL!!

1. What is your sexiest coloured bra?
black? i guess?

2. Do you prefer light or dark haired guys?
doesnt matter

3. Are you currently frustrated with a boy?
No

4. Do you have a best friend?
yeah

5. Have you ever had your heart broken?
yeah

6. Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery?
yeah but i would never do it

7. Do you like your life?
pretty much

9. Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on?
Nope

10. Do you have more friends that are girls or boys?
it depends

11. How long have you had facebook?
about a year

12. Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?
yeah :p

13. What are your biggest fears?
gaining weight

14. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
all the time

15. Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?
Yes.

16. Have you ever had a good feeling about something?
kinda

17. Do you ever wish you were famous?
Yup

18. Are you currently missing someone?
yea

THIS GUY OR THAT GUY?

Cowboy or Gangster?
NEITHER

Preppy or Punk/Goth?
Preppy

Face or Body?
both

Sweet or Sexy?
both

Well-educated or Dropout?
Well-educated obv.

Armani or Abercrombie?
well, at least with armani you know they can afford it ;)

City-slicker or Rural Guy?
does it matter?

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01. Eyeliner or Mascara?
id like both

02. Louis Vuitton or Dooney & Bourke?
neither

03. American eagle or Hollister?
neither but if i had to choose, then Hollister

04. Heels or flats?
Flats and the really expensive designer heels that i cannot afford ;)

05. Skirts or pants?
either or. it depends.

06. Socks or leggings?
leggings

07. Hoodies or jackets?
Either...

08. Heels or sneakers?
heels

09. Straight or curly hair?
Straight.

10. Hoop or dangling earrings?
Dangly

where did 11 go?

12. Victoria's Secret or bath and body works?
for bath products???? bath and body works

13. Smoothies or lattes?
smoothies

14. Diet or regular sodas?
diet

15. Water or daiquiris?
Water

16. Pearls or diamonds?
Diamonds.

17. Vintage or boho?
Vintage

18. Mary-Kate or Ashley Olsen?
mary-kate

19. Lindsay or Hilary?
neither

20. Ipod or cell phone?
iPod

21. Friends or family?
both

22. Lip gloss or lip stick?
lip gloss

23. Manicure or pedicures?
manicure

24. Tank tops or beaters?
both??

25. Tiffany's or Chanel?
both, mostly Chanel

26. Love or peace?
Both.

27. Sunglasses or purses?
purses

IN A GUY:

28. Funny or Serious?
Both

29. Romantic or Daredevil?
Romantic.

30. Cute or Hot?
Beautiful

31. Dark Eyes or light?
Either

32. Long Hair or Short Hair?
Short. and semi-long

33. Curly Hair or Straight Hair?
Straight

34. Clean-cut or Rough?
Clean cut

35. Good Dancer or Good Singer?
Either or Neither.

36. Basketball Player or Football Player?
eh, i dont care???

37. Jock or Rebel?
???

38. Smoker or Non-Smoker?
Non-smoker obv, smoking discusting.

39. Drunk or Sober?
Sober. Haha, who'd say drunk?

40. Druggie or Clean?
Clean. Once again, whod say junkie?

41. Has a Motorcycle or Has a Sports Car?
sports car

42. Beard/Mustache or Clean-shave?
Clean shave

43. Younger or Older?
it depends. a few months younger? sure. a year younger? depends. two years? again, i dont think so.

44. Player or Loyal?
LOYAL. obv.

annasui_muimui @ 2008-06-25T21:20:00

2008-06-26T01:25:03Z

Who was the last person you talked to on the telephone?
savannah

What were you doing at 7am?
sleeeping

What was the reason you last cried?
i was un-satisfied with how i looked

What are you seriously wearing?
long tee shirt and pink pants

Have you ever driven without a license?
no

Is there anything that you are craving for right now?
cookies. ofcourse i wont eat it.

What are you doing tonight?
talking

Is anyone on your bad side right now?
yes

Do you clean when you’re upset?
no

Last text is from?
i dont know...?

How you do you feel about that person?
i wouldnt knwo

Would you ever dye your hair blonde?
no

How many pairs of shoes do you own?
not that many

Had your heart broken recently?
no

Do you know anyone who is pregnant?
no

Can you make brownies without having to look at the directions?
no way

Any plans for tomorrow?
maybe

Who is your last myspace message from, and what's it about?
i dont remember

Do you still talk to the person who broke your heart the worst?
no... i wish i did. because he didnt mean to. all he did was end it but somehow i felt like it wasnt enough the time we had

Do you usually tell people when they hurt your feelings?
sometimes

Where is the last place you went to go eat?
i even forgot that

Have you bought any clothing items in the past week?
no, i need to

Do you sing in the shower?
rarely

When you look at your cell phone do you usually have a message?
mostly

Do you have your own personal diary?
no... a food diary, though.

What's on your mind right now?
food

How have you felt today?
bloated.

Next vacation?
new york, im hoping

How old do you look?
young. and younger when my eyes are sunken.

Does anyone hate you?
eah and i hate the bitch too.

Are you happy with life?
sorta. im thankfull

Can you handle the truth?
sometimes

Anything you'd like to say to anyone?
yeah your a fat cow go eat some more so i can feel better about myself. even though your 10- times taller than me

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
depends why they lost the first one

Did you cry today?
possibly

Do you miss anyone?
yes, a lot

Who knows your biggest secret?
you guys

WHAT THE FUCK.

2008-06-19T21:41:40Z

so i take a shower in my bathroom and like 30 minutes later (i have waist length hair and it had lots and lots of chlorine in it) my dad knocks vigerously on my door and comes ina nd says shit shit shit! and next thing i know WATER LEAKED THROUGH A LIKE CRACK IN MY TILE FLOOR INTO THE LIGHT FIXTUR IN MY DINING ROOM

i hate this house so much
if i were to live here any longer, sure, why not
the rest of my life? NO.

and its a rental and my mom is like "i was thinking maybe we could live here" and i was like "NO"
because there are little bugs that pop out from nowhere, and the things are old, and its just too much.
i mean how did the people used to live here.
i wonder how fucking old this place is.

nooooo!

2008-06-13T20:03:02Z

Tim Russert, from the Today show (Meet The Press) is dead at 58 from a heart attack :(
I watch the Today show every morning before school and tomorrow i think im going to watch it, and its just so sad :(

report card

2008-06-13T02:27:29Z

i've been almost DYING to get my report card, just to see what i made in spanish (aka, the worst subject i've ever had to endure and hopefully, MY LAST *knock on wood*)

overall semester grade: 67%
exam grade: 64%

job well done in failing, i would say ;)

im surprised though... i made a 77 in global studies, i thought i could do better. maybe. and i made a 65% on the end of year/quarter exam. but supposedly, i passed

YAY FOR SKINNI-NESS AND ON TO THE 10TH GRADE! :D

eww....

2008-06-03T23:08:01Z

i got out of school early, and im not going back until august WOO. i went with my friend to my brother's school and i also ate half of a cupcake..... well actually, more like 1/4
:)
and then we went to this thai place (where i filled out an application :}) and its really good BUT, i couldnt do it. i was so hungry and i got something HEALTHY. and then i ate like three pieces of mini shrimp, and i couldnt do it. i sat there.... and ignored it. i had a full bowl of rice, veggies, and shrimp left. it was disgusting to me, and i couldnt do it. i had the worst nausea and headache ever.

and i just made a waffle and im not going to eat it.
i cant.

but today was good

IM NOT A FRESHMAN ANYMORE hahahahaha woo!

survey

2008-05-13T01:02:06Z

Name: aelix
If you could have chosen your own name: i dont know really haha
Eye Color: brown
Hair Color: Brown
Height: 5'1/2
Weight: i dont know because i havent weighed myself in two days but 92/92.5 or under
Ideal Weight: 97 lbs.
Best Feature: wrists, over all feeling, i just seem small because i guess i am. and my hair, its nice and long haha
Worst Feature(s): height, in some ways
Zodiac Sign: aries
US Presidential Candidate: neither. i mean anyone but hilary, so i gues obama.
Body Type: petite
Ethnicity: caucasian.
Believe in God: yeah
Want Kids: yes
What Rx Drugs are you on: none
Favorite Exercise: swimming
Fav TV Show: gossip girl, greys anatomy, skins, F.R.I.E.N.D.S
Fav Movie: 10 things i hate about you, breakfast at tiffany's
Best Tip for not binging: "skinny skinny skinny. bones bones bones. hip bones hip bones hip bones" and TONS of real-girl thinspo
Fav Low Cal Meal: fruit and veggies x10. i love them, cant get enough of them

Have you ever???

Shoplifted: no
Been Arrested: no
Had Sex: no
Had Sex in a Public Place: no
Made out or hooked up with a friends boyfriend: o
Skinny Dipped: no
Had feelings for a married man/woman: no.
Tried to commit Suicide: no!!!
Seen someone die: no
Lost a parent/sibling: grandparent
Had an abortion: no

Describe your idea guy/girl ( who you’d want as a boyfriend/husband/partner )

Build: Thin.
Height: at least 5'7
Hair: Dark or light, i dont mind either
Eyes: Don't care.
Personality: funny, loving, kind, adventurous, trustworthy
Job: anything but chain food restruaunts haha
He/she must: love life, and me

Random:

I See: gossip girl
I Hear: music from gossip girl
I Feel: tired, but happy because im a size smaller? :)
I Want: to have the guts to mix my diet coke with a bit of malibu
I Need: worry less forgive more easily and live life fuller, also to do my homework ;)
I Hate: SPANISH CLASS!!!!
I Love: desserts/baking
I Like: summer and winter, and fashion
I Lust: easily
I Cry: easily
I Eat: less
I purge: never. i never wanted to and i never am able to, so im guessing its a sign
I Fear: food, and an un-easy death
I Wonder: how much i weigh

friends only

2008-05-02T20:58:41Z

comment to be added
in the near future, this will be filled with updates with my diet journal. but i dont see the need to post if i dont have a lot of friends yet ;)